Little Things

Little things
A Naruto Fanfiction by Raayy. (AKA: ToysAndChocolate)

I don't own Naruto. However, I love him.

Gaara's centred. Ficlet.

Beta-read by Saku-Dianas! Thank you so much! ;w;

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Hate.

This word could define all of your feelings.

A monster of hate.

You just feel it. Feel it so hard that it blinds and hurts you. Anguish, passing nights without sleep, just enjoying it.

Rage.

Feels like it's passing through your skin and infecting the place. But knows, it's just an impression.

Or is it?

Family.

"Nothing more than links within blood, meat and hate", so you say. But knows if it's true?

Sorrow, anger, resentment, curses, murders, but nothing is important. Not next to the  hate.

You never knew why you hated your brothers that have never spoken with you. But you still hate them.

They never give anything but the choice to hate.

Past.

You don't like to remember, but you still remember it.

It gave you rage. Rage of the incompetence of yourself.

And so she came. Nostalgia. She can be simple things, like a known place, but the worst it from the smell.

Like your Teddy bear that had a smell that just he had.

Then you feel. The smell. And can't do nothing more because is incompetent before the sensation. It's pure nostalgia invading your nerves.

You let the bear go and the smell went away like the nostalgia. But you're still affected. The sensation doesn't leave you for a long time and it's totally useless for you to think of anything.

You don't like your past, but you can't avoid to miss it (miss what? From the abuse?).

It's useless to feel it. And you know it very well (only it will hurt more and more).

Tiredness.

For the nights awake, you have rings under your eyes recorded. You never sleep, don't sleep for the fear to losing your mind.

So, you became tired.

The eyelids became heavy, but you don't let it win. The muscles became heavy, but you don't give up.

Fear.

In the end, you're moved to that.

The fear that prevented you from sleep, the fear of the future that may make you search the past, the fear of the treason of your family may make you hate, the fear that leads to the anger, the hate.

You're fearful, Gaara.